This inability of mine has always made slightly more difficult for me to approach the lipstick femmes, which I am always so drawn to. It also comes down to a basic shyness, so in a lethal combination of both. I often find myself unable or unwilling to approach a lady of interest. Often times I might have friends run interference or the liquid courage from a couple of cocktails, which then enables me to go over and talk to her. Another useful technique is sending the lady a drink or just good old fashioned observation. Just because she might come into the bar alone doesn’t mean she is going to stay that way.

I have gotten into the habit of the later…observation….watching certain ladies over a period of time instead of approaching too quickly. Believe it or not this can often save you a lot of drama. Things are not always as they seem and by watching someone you often will see little tell tell signs that might reveal, if they are single, just out of relationship, currently has a partner etc…

But you don’t always find your interest in a bar, where your gaydar doesn’t need to be exact, after all if they are in a gay establishment. Chances are pretty good that they are there for the same reason you are. To meet someone…What do you do, if you cross paths with someone of interest at the Dr’s office, restaurant, coffee shop, library, etc…?

I am in query of sorts having met someone at the local library, but I don’t know if the interest is mutual. I had lost my computer due to a power surge and a friend suggested that I go to the library for computer use and access. I had not been in a library since my school days and upon entering the library, there in front of me was a vision, who suddenly renewed my interest. She stood 5’2 shoulder length dark brown hair, big brown eyes, fair skinned and wearing a pressed simple white shirt, as she stepped from behind the desk to lead me to the computer area, I noticed her full length black skirt cut just so that it showed off her great legs. I couldn’t help but sigh in appreciation of a beautiful lady. I kept my composure and anxiously waited for my next visit and there would be many to follow. I kept trying to figure her out and made idle chit chat in order to get any possible hint of interest from her.

One day I stopped by on my way to a job interview dressed very professionally, a departure from the jeans, t-shirts and ball cap which was my usual attire. When I walked in, it was as if Ms. Librarian really saw me for the first time, I noticed her looking me up and down with a smile as her eyes sparkled with appreciation…probably the same look I’d been giving her each time I came by.

It is difficult in a situation like this to answer the tough question, is she or isn’t she gay and whether she would go out with me for dinner or drinks? I do think there is a mutual interest judging by our brief conversations. But then again I must admit as a writer, my mind can often create an illusion of a scene that may not be all that it seems. The creative process and artistic vision can often go hand in and creating some incredible scenarios.

I am not sure what my next step should be. Since my gaydar is non-existent, I could always ask a friend to give me their opinion on her. Maybe I will give her this copy this story. That could easily resolve my conflict and the issue of is she or isn’t she?

Stay tuned to see how this story continues to unfold…Until next time have faith the next adventure is just around the corner! Contact me at HelloMsHeartbreak@yahoo.com.