After a while, things went back to normal. Nico and I were good friends, trying to avoid the issue of sex altogether, but it was difficult. After the two of us figured out that we had much in common, we decided to spend much time together just as friends. The attraction was there and it was even worse when she reunited with her boyfriend. She was off limits to me at that point. There were things that just can’t be done. Nico and Anthony were reconciling and Lisa was trying to solve her marital problems. Lisa and Mike were together again trying to work things out, yet that didn’t stop her from calling me when she felt he was cheating again.

Nico and I talked frequently, in great detail about her fiancé Anthony. Yes, her fiancé Anthony. He popped the question to her after the last breakup. She bought it to my attention rather abruptly. The last time I checked, they were just reconciling. Everyone was sincerely happy for her though, including me. While Lisa worked on her relationship, Nico and Anthony worked to maintain their love. The two of them were so happy it seemed after a while, and it was well deserved for Nico. Nico got to the point where she would spend little time with me for fear we would sleep together. There was a deep sexual attraction between the two of us that was desperately fought. She practically told me one night we were out with Lisa, their men, and my date who my mind forgets altogether. Only thing remembered about that woman was we had sex. Around those two, any other woman was invisible, plus Lisa was number one anyway. Lisa didn’t care when I was with other women because she knew; however, Nico would treat me harsh when she saw me with a woman.

That particular night Nico seemed okay as she was hugged all over Anthony. They were a type of serious that I had never seen in my years. She loved him but we shared in an attraction that was stronger than the two of us. It’s like being extremely hot, and trying to cool off. My mind recalls going to the classic arcade game to play a quick game of Defender within the restaurant, which was a childhood recreation. Tanico came over and talked with me about Anthony. Questions like, “Do you think he has changed?” “Will he be different?”

‘Nico, that is up to you to decide. I’m biased anyway.’

She gave me one of those pretty smiles and spoke of the times we had.

‘I wish I would’ve met you years ago. Right now you are so lost.’

‘Why do you say that?’ I replied.

‘You don’t know what you want,’ she said. ‘If you did, I would love you.’

‘You don’t now?’

‘Not like that, but I’m looking at you and thinking that after this night I can’t come to your house.’

‘That wouldn’t be a good idea.’ I replied

‘I know and that’s why we need to stay friends. You make my body feel so good.”

‘Do I?’

‘Yes…….Getting wet just thinking about it,’ smiling brightly.

‘Nico……You don’t talk like that,’ replying in amazement.

‘It was a joke, but I do want you.’

After the discussion, we returned to the table and joined in with the conversation. Our eyes would meet several times; as we sat there talking with everyone else. What she said to me resonated in my mind, truly unclear of what was next for me in life. That night, she helped me decide what needed to be done to fix life. We stayed in contact; however, my life was now the focus of my days. It was time for me to experience things on my own.

We spent time at her home just watching television and playing cards many nights, while Lisa worked on her marriage and other things. Nico kept me busy most of those nights relaxing and talking about Anthony. Our relationship was infrequently sexual, yet the relationship changed to a more family one, especially since the reuniting of her and her boo. She was a certified treat in my life at that time; however, she was also one of my weaknesses. There was more time spent with Nico due to Lisa beginning to deteriorate after a while.

Fast forwarding to the present, a part of me misses Lisa and our relationship. The good, the bad, and the ugly are all missed. Without her, my life wouldn’t have been too successful. Lisa contributed to my well being when others could have cared less. As much distrust there has been of her, there is a part of me that misses her friendship. People may see that as disrespect to my current wife, but it really is far from disrespect. When we are in our development stages, we become attached to our parents, siblings, etc. because they provide nurturing. As we grow older, we develop friendships that nurture as well; therefore, developing an attachment. Sometimes there is a feeling of loss or even unfinished business when my mind focuses on her. She would seem like a very arrogant, calculating woman, but to Nico and me, she was the sunlight we needed during dark times. She had done some negative things, but what was realized is we were all growing up, so we make those mistakes.

To be continued…………..

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