Have you ever wondered why things happen the way they do? Do you ever wonder if only I had said the right words she might have stayed? In my recent search for Cinderella, I came across a special lady, who called to my heart like no other had in a very long time. All the lights were green for this new love to become the epitome of what I had always been searching for. But you know fear can be a beast that is hard to tame and can often leave us wondering what if? So the letter that follows is my attempt to fight back the beast that appeared seemingly out of nowhere to throw a monkey wrench into this budding new love.

In a way this probably the hardest letter I‘ve ever written. I am a person of so many words, little if ever do they fail me, but they fail me now. I have found my dream come true in you and somehow have managed to love and lose you all in what seems to be like a blink of an eye. I know that you are scared and there are issues that perhaps you are not quite ready to tackle? I cannot really ever know what your real story is for as much as I love you, it is still your story. I feel like somewhere I left you behind and have been waiting for you to catch up. It does not seem like that is going to happen. Does that mean that all those words we spoke didn’t matter or weren’t true? I don’t know…I only know that for me every word, every second, everyday we spent together is as close as I have come to what I want. But there is no way I can impose my desires upon you…and perhaps this is what I’ve been doing all along?

I know but one thing…I love you and I don’t want to lose you. Though I may not be certain about how to back things up and take the things slower. I only know that without you in my life…well… it would be most painful. Distance they say can heal many things…I wonder if it can heal a heart? I know that I love you enough to let you go and hope that you will come back to me. Easy enough to distract ourselves with other things…but yet deep in our hearts we know and that knowledge can sometimes be burdensome. My heart is heavy with sadness yet I am not sure why other then I felt yours move away and perhaps that is why I feel wounded.

We need to talk…I promise to give you space, a listening ear, and a heart that just wants to understand you. I have much to do and having you in my life made it seem ever more important to succeed for you , for us. I know that if it is your decision to flee then I can not stop you…nor would I want to. I told you once, that I could not convince you to love me that it was a decision you had to make…well so is this one. I am here, I will wait for you…but if you do not communicate with me then there really is nothing I can do.

Many years have gone by in both our lives…many experiences, love, life, etc…but how often does the chance we have come along? A real chance at a life in love with someone who we just cannot see living a life without. Both our lives will somehow go on of that I am sure but how much sweeter it would be to share a life together with someone who we will stand beside us in all that life has to offer.

I know that none of my words will change anything, if you have already made the decision to distance yourself from what you feel. But one day dear lady somewhere down the line you will look back and wonder…why you have run from someone who cares, treasures, and loved you for exactly who you are and saw the possibilities of yours dream just as you wished for them. I am wounded my dear because you chose not to speak to me and trust that my heart would listen and give you what you desire …time …love …respect…understanding…and all the things that make life ever so precious.

I can only hope that my words find a way to communicate with your heart and mind knowing that I love you very deeply…but I can not hold what wants to be free!

Stay tuned to read the part 2 to this story….until next week have faith…the next adventure is just around the corner…Reader’s you can contact me at HelloMsHeartbreak@yahoo.com

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