Funny, how words and dreams can get mixed up and make the real world seem somehow unreal. How many times can we put our hearts out there for one more chance and when do we just quit trying? There will always be etched memories of the past that find their way into out daily thoughts. But how is it that, it actually keeps us at times from living the life we dream? I have once again discovered love but yet, is it just an illusion or is this finally the real thing? The physical attraction and love is there and it’s real…the familiarity of kindred spirits is rare, but when it happens….every moment is precious. She possesses something I have always dreamed of, when she is at my side I have no more need for dreams. So as life continues to unfold…I try once more try to put things into perspective with Part 2 of…”All For The Love Of A Lady.”
Letting go of the past to embrace a new future….it can be a most difficult path for the losses are sometimes more then one can bear? I’ve often wondered why heartbreak has come so readily to me. I just can’t seem not to pin my dreams and my heart, when I wrap my arms around my lover. A missing puzzle piece finally found among the ruins of what could have been….this becomes what could be. I often sit and wonder some days what is the real recipe for love? What is the right recipe for life? In the past years I’ve come to believe, it is a delicate balance of all things life and love.
We have learned as we get older, when life gives us lemons. We’ve been told by our grandparents and parents to make lemonade! As simple as it sounds. It really is just that…for we have all the answers we need within ourselves. We just have to be strong enough and brave to cut through all the fog and make the changes to enable us to move forward! So In the past article, “All For The Love Of A Lady’, I poured out my heart to a lady, I was certain I had lost. I wrote the story because I wanted her to know how I felt about her, about us. It was one of the hardest letters, I’ve ever written! But it was even more difficult sending that letter via email and waiting for her to respond. I had no idea what to expect. I allowed 2 friends to read the email and they gave me 2 very different opinions.
My friend Kathy’s advice was not very encouraging, “Gina, why did you write this letter? You should have not contacted her and let her make the next move!”
“Kathy, if I never heard from her again, I had to let her know how I feel! I couldn’t just sit back and do nothing!”, I pleaded in vain.
“Well Gina, I would not have sent the letter, but what is done is done. If you even have an idea about calling her? I want you to call me instead, promise me that? She ran because she felt pressured by you! You now have to give her some room to think about whether or not she wants to continue seeing you. It’s going to be really hard but if love her. Then give her space!” I felt like a student being reprimanded by a teacher, with Kathy’s words ringing in my ear.
I reluctantly gave into her words of advice,”Ok Kathy, I promise, if I feel like contacting her in any way? I will call you first!”, and in the days that followed…I called her often!
When I asked my friend Trina for her advice, her response to reading the letter was completely different and gave me a ray of hope to hang onto. “Oh my God Gina! I’ve never read a more heart wrenching letter! If you had sent this to me? I would have been calling you the moment I read it, crying and tell you I just realized how much you loved me! I would give anything in this world to find someone who loves me the way you do her! You did the right thing to send this to her, it is the most romantic thing I’ve ever read! She’ll come back Gina, just give her some space to think, she’ll come around. “ Trina calmly reinforced my feelings, while agreeing with Kathy, that I now had I to sit back and wait.
It was the most difficult thing other then writing that letter that I had to endure! Her response would come 10 days later…stay tuned for the conclusion to “For The Love Of A Lady”
Have faith the next adventure is just around the corner…Contact me at HelloMsHeartbreak@yahoo.com
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